It's been a bit of a shocker this week if I am honest. I have had some news that has made me look at everything in such a stark and different way. I have been diagnosed with diabetes and it is not good. My blood sugars were at dangerous levels. This has made me so very scared and frightened. Whilst it is connected to my thyroid and medically linked, there is no doubt I have not looked after myself in recent years. No more. I need to change my lifestyle and fast. I want to be around for Amy and the girls for many, many years to come and this is my only focus. I have started with my diet (and some significant drugs) in the last week and will continue to focus on this every day for the rest of my life. Then with this platform; exercise and quitting smoking will come in the coming months. No false promises this time. For the first time in my life I have a real sense of my own mortality and I will do this. My life is about my family and that's all I need. I want more time with them and I can have an impact on this. Nobody lives for ever, but I need to at least give myself a fighting chance. This is one day at a time and the kick up the arse I well and truly needed. I hope life gives me the same time I have already wasted to change this and be with my three girls. Lucy, pictured in 2019 here, as she still won't let me take a picture, is also taking on new challenges in starting her Duke of Edinburgh award. I felt really emotional today as I dropped her off. I think that this is really going to challenge and test my sloth like teenage daughter. Her reluctance to try her walking boots on, try out her large rucksack do not bode well! Watch this space on all fronts. Let life battles commence x
